24/04/05
A true story
Today emotions are pressing me hard to tell u about a young chap. As it happens with any person in among age that they dream high,very high.so happend with our chap. He was always dreaming of touching sky. For him also it was the thinking that sky is the limit. As i told u that i am going to tell u a story but sorry! my mood has changed because it will much time to complete the story so i will tell u only some events & parts of the story.So the boy was black in complexion but always thinking something special about him.means he was a egoist person.As happens to any such type of person he had also some attitude problem.
So it happened with the chap.He left the naval job and joined the college.so because he was in the armed forces he had a naturally well built body but also had a black color.When he joined the college he found that the standard of the college was very low and he found himself apart from others and everyone thought about him as the smartest.It was the thinking of the chap.Naturally he wore a mask of the smartest and behaved accordingly .His class consisted of 95 students alongwith 10 girls. As he thought himself smart he never talked to them much more like a frog in the well.
He thought everything can go according to him and also he looked to others with lack of respect but never showed it wearing a humble mask.He was in the illusion that any girl will fall flat for him.Never showed any respect about them.But it was a middle class mindset. It was also mindset of girls.So our hero was always solving the programming to show his smartness.There was a good looking brilliant girl. Our hero never showed a sign of respect for her because he thought that the girl has a soft corner in her heart for him.It is very natural at this young stage and u know it always happens.His thinking and fear prevented him from taking initil step. He thought that when a girl is competing with boys in every area then why can't she compete in this area of love also and take a little initiative.Actually since she was a good-looking also,so everyone was trying to catch in their bait.
Because our hero had a attitude problem and the girl was also a egoist so naturally the between them became unbreakable.
Meanwhile it so happened that the girl topped and lo!our hire burnt of a sense of envy.It was also a bad luck tha t he didn't top but he was much better than the girl in academics.But two of the demerits of color & nature(u can say shyness mixed with ego) always made him depressed.so next year our hero left no stone unturned for topping and topped too.
He topped but it was of no worth because whom he wanted to show his away was getting married and didn't appear whole of the third year to attend class.In this way our hero first time felt love for that girl after missing the opportunity. so it was natural that our hero became a Devdas type of thing with majnu attributes.
The gossips of other friends also strengthened his belief that she had a soft corner for him.
Our majnu planned a lot of things to express his feelings to the girl but all the plannings found their ways only to dustbin.
What prevented him earlier was also his belief that it is the chemical attack on mind which makes a person to get attracted towards another and many a time he clenched his fists to take control of his feelings and prove himself strong against these feelings.However he was attracted towards other girls also which was a natural but as it happens to any person who wanted to eat a mango,which was the best in terms of both looks,tastes& qualities.
So happened to this guy that he wanted to this guy that he wanted to eat sweetest mango because he thought he ws the smartest eligible candidate.
All his enthusiasm towards life started to fade after the departure of the girl as it happens to anybody.But he had some strong background of armed forces which prevented him from fading.He thought that when he left the job, this girl was not in mind so why and how she will change her life.Let the life to bloom and the fragrance of new flower will come to it naturally.
He applied a no. of ways to forget the girl but you the sketches encraved(drawn) deep on mind as well as heart takes time in erasing.He tried to change the place to forget but he forgot that his mind & heart was always there with her.So wherever he went he found the same girl in the name of apartments,buildings,classes auto-rickshaws etc. It was like running from his own shadow.
Finally he got me landed to delhi for further studies. he was thinking in the same respect always.when he went to AIIMS there he found a girl of same looks or it might be his illusion.He wanted to propose that girl.But fortunately he couldn't summoned the courage.He was always disturbed everytime of that figure.Finally he decided to make a phone-call after reaching to home.his mind was totally occupied be the same thinking.probably this is called becoming blind in love.Anyway he managed in getting the phone-no. from his brother and made a call to her.By chance it was she only on the line and it was like the dry earth and dying trees got the first shower of rain after much waiting.But when majnu made a no. of missed calls the heroine shattered all his dreams shaking his every belief.
Now the ego of hero woke-up and he felt once again a change of attitude towards himself. his illusion was over.Now he attempted seriously to forget her little by little but the type of eraser to rub-off the sketches from mind ws not available.
His next destination was pune.The girl was there again but the hero had changed his mind and he wanted to enjoy the life with employing the mind for overtime and filling the gap.
He did a no. of things to improve his phisique to maintain his confidence.At the end of the day he wanted to die on the bed so that none of the girl regarded girl ever can creep.Everything started going smoothily.He joined two institutes.
He made a new girlfriend just to fill the gap.He had never done this before.But can he fill the gap ever?
